i feel much better. now. he knows everything i know. =]

I'm in one of those moods that nothing is really wrong in my life, but my brain keeps on insisting that there is. Or maybe it's my heart thats doing the insisting. I can't really tell. You know that feeling?

maybe i'll share my life with somebody.. maybe not. but the truth is, when i think back to my loneliest moments, there was usually somebody sitting there next to me.

I just can't keep my hands off of you
you look so small all wrapped up in my arms
I am so in love with you

"The sad thing is, you can love someone and still be wrong for them" – Elvis Presley

Actions do speak louder than words,
but words are the sparks that light the fire

love with all your heart. give with all your soul.

hold on as tight as you can & just never let go.

When a girl is quiet, a million things are running through her mind.

When a girl isn’t arguing, she’s thinking deeply.

When a girl says nothings wrong, everything is wrong.

When a girl says she can’t live without you, you are her future.

When a girl lays on your Chest, she’s wishing to be yours forever.

When a girl says I love you, she truly means it.

When a girl says I miss you, no one could miss you more.

L o v e is like standing on wet cement: the longer you stay the harder

it is to leave and you can never let go without leaving your foot prints behind ...

Isn't it funny how when you want it the

most, you can't have it and when you

have it, you don't care and once you

lose it, you'd do anything to get it back?

Tell me all the things you never said

We can lie here and talk for hours in my bed,

I don't have anything to hide.

and ultimately , he's going to find out

how you chew , how you sip, how you

hum, how you dance , how you smell at

every point in the day ; the fact that most

of your friends are shallow , that you hate

sitting in an aisle seat, how you sometimes

can't seem to listen , how you get hyper

when you travel , how certain games or

shows make you really happy, how you

get cranky because you're too stupid to

remember to sleep , how you don't like

the way you look in most of your pictures,

how you can't get off the phone when you're

late because you don't want to sound like you

don't care , how you have no ability to save

receipts; he's going to know all of it,

everything about you, he's going to know,

and he's still going to love you.

mhmkay. that is all.

comment if you feel the need =] =]

wow. its been a REALLY long time. i'm sorry about that. i have decided to update. uhm...on my life...i'm working at gordons..not sure if i've said that already...and me and Jason are still together =]. going on a year and like a month. and ...... yeah. i'll just update =]

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Ever since I was young,
I never really understood anything about the world.
And I never understood anything that happened in my life.
The only thing that ever made any sense to me was you.
And how I felt about you.
That's all I've ever known,
and that's enough for the rest of my life.
-Boy Meets World

I love it when people say that they have given up on love.
And it's always because they think love has hurt them when in actuality,
it was a person, it was a thing, a wrong decision, a bad mistake, an accident.
So don't let go of love, hold on because I promise you
it's always worth your while

"YOU will be the only YOU to ever live on this planet.
How fuckin rad is that? So don’t be afraid to be yourself.
Take advantage of being unique
and stay true to who you really are."
-John O'Callaghan (The Maine)

And it just made me think a lot,
about how fragile life is,
and how it could end any time.
But I'd be happy if I spent it with you.
It would be worth living if it was with you.

Dear whoever is reading this:
You are loved. You are lovely and you are loved.
End of story

I know why you're saying this,
but you're missing out.
You know when it works,
love is pretty amazing.
It's not over-rated.
There's a reason for all those songs.

Never make somebody a priority,
if they only consider you an option.

Hey, rise and shine and open up your eyes
to give this world some color.
Shine on diamond eyes.
Separate the space between love and lies.

I will show you love
like you've never loved before.
I will go the distance and back for more,
if you just say the word.

So hi. This is me, in all my frailty.
Laying myself out for you,
that we might walk through this
beautiful, awful, strange thing we call life, together.

Try and expect nothing,
but be open for anything.
Don't look for happiness,
but don't settle for anything less.

I'll tell you something. This is your one chance.
You're going off to college soon, and this is your
one and only chance to leave. Get out. I don't
care where you go; the midwest, California, hell,
just go. Get out there and see the world. Cause
after college, you're gonna need to have an actual
life. And then life passes you out. Take this chance.
Because I can promise you, you won't get another .
-Elizabeth Coleman

I won't remember every detail about you.
I won't know what to say sometimes.
I won't remember every important date or appointment.
I won't get your order right.
I'll be late.
I'll mess up.
But I will remember the important things.
But I'll say something anyways.
But I'll run through the door as soon as I remember.
But I'll go back and make it right.
But I'll get there.
But I'll try.

And I'm in love, with everything you do.
You can have the best of me.
Forget what I want, you're all that I need.

I ask myself why, and in that same breath,
as I watch you, I get my answer.
It's everything about you;
it's that teasing smile, that warm scent.
It's the curve of your arms, the tousle of your hair,
the ring of your voice. It's just everything about you.
But more than that, it's everything about me.
It's everything about the way you make me laugh,
cry, smile and hurt.
It's everything about the way you make me feel.
And that's everything that I cannot,
and would not, want to let go of.

No one here to believe but you.
Everyone else is bound to leave but you.
When they swear their love is real,
they mean I like the way you make me feel.

It's an interesting time in your life
because you're trying to act older & mature,
but you really have no idea what you're doing.
You're scared, & it's okay to be scared.
It's okay to not know completely what you want or
what you should be doing & stumble a little bit.
--Milo Ventimiglia

wellppp...thats all folks.

sorry i don't update much.

steal if you want.

comment if you please.

=]

going to see The Ugly Truth with Jason tonight. uhmm...yeah. i guess no actual feelings. just kinda mixed. excited for tomorrow! pray for me.

update:*:::*:::

your first love; you know who I’m talking about. the only boy you've ever really fallen for, and you know that it's true love. it's none of the silly, immature love that people claim they do after a couple of weeks; you've got honesty and loyalty; you fight and yet you still love because you both know what you want. you both know that you were meant for each other so you wouldn't want to mess things up. no matter how many times you fight, you know deep down that you could never truly be mad at them. to think that they were out of your life before is just simply amazing how you ever lived before at all. not a day goes by without you constantly thinking about them and it scares the hell out of you to think "if I’m so in love with this one person, this person that I love with everything I have, how do other people move on and love another?" you're so emotionally attached to this boy that you're so scared to love someone else. this boy taught you the real meaning of love and you never thought you had love in you until he came along and showed you. you never knew the meaning of jealousy was until every time he mentioned a girl, it made you want to make sure that you were the best thing he has. everything you've dreamt up of a perfect boy was nothing compared to what this boy has because it made you see that not everything you want is everything you need. you'll never forget the boy that changed your whole life because he's your best friend, and the love of your life.

When I close my eyes, I'm with you.

The moment I was with him the heaviness of my depression lifted.
I've never been more at home or at ease than this time here with him.
Jump_4jesus

Time together is just never quite enough. When you and I are alone, I've never felt so at home. What will it take to make or break this hint of love? We need time, only time.

We are inclined to believe those whom we do not know because they have never deceived us.
--Samuel Johns

& we laid there that night holding onto one another
& crossing our hearts promising to never leave.
Jump_4jesus

annnd now i'm out of quotes. it switched from last time. sorry!

kinda a worthless update. sorry about that! need to get more stuff i guess.

have a good life.

sooo....hi. thanks for commenting. im gonna update once again. obviously.

uhm. im kinda slightly maybe content. but i can't be sure..

((and for some reason it only let me update these first six pictures..so i guess the rest will be quotes))

laughed so much, loved & lost too much, drunk way too fucking much,
partyed never enough, smiled & cried lots,
tried too hard & fallen too hard, kissed some bad lips
& proved some good points, meet some pricks &
said some silly things, been with some ugly cunts,
but fuck it, you get one life & everyone learns from their mistakes.

so take too many pictures, laugh too much,
and love like you've never been hurt
because every sixty seconds you spend upset
is a minute of happiness you'll never get back

i believe that everything happens for a reason.
people change so that you can learn to let go,
things go wrong so that you appreciate them when
they're right, you believe less so eventually you
learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes
good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

i ran out of reasons to
smile, then you came along

when you can't stop smiling after you talk to him
and you still get butterflies in your stomach
and that huge smile across your face every time you see him...
that lets you know he will always mean something to you.

she's just a silly girl.
who keeps her hopes too high and her jeans too low.
who lives by quotes & can`t ever seem to say
the right thing at the right time.
she's just another pretty girl looking for herself in a big world.

Z

find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep.. wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you.. the one who turns to his friends and says, that’s her..

Z

i walk through the hallways at school
and laugh at the boys i used to like
because not even one of them comes close to you.

Z

you aren't the only reason I smile,
but you're definitely my favorite.

Z

if he's the one you love
and the one who makes you happy,
no matter how long you've liked him
and no matter what other people say,
you should keep trying and waiting
because one day it may just be worth it.

Z

honestly the truth about girls..

- we love ben && jerrys more than you.
- we will never be too old for sleepovers.
- gossip isn`t a sin; it`s an art.
- we must go to the bathroom in groups.
- we have this thing called feelings; don`t hurt them.
- there`s no point in having an ex if you can`t be a bitch to him.
- we don`t wake up looking pretty. it takes time and effort.
- sometimes is just never quite enough.
- we need girls nights; OFTEN.
- we hold grudges and we never forget the things you say to us that hurt.
- it doesn`t matter who dumped who or why. whenever we see an ex
with another girl, it always bothers us.. not because we`re not
over you, but because we know we used to be that girl.
- no guy wants to marry a whore. well, no girl wants to marry a manwhore either.
- never ever ask a girl what she weighs; or imply anything about
her weight being too much or too little. just don`t do it.
- our eyes are located in our heads. not our chest or butt.
so when you`re not looking in our eyes, WE KN0W

Z

he really does make everything okay
i couldn't ask for anything more than that.
i guess he might be a little bit more than amazing.

Z

I like nonsense - it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living. It's a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope... and that enables you to laugh at all of life's realities.

Z

Nothing hits harder than life. Not you. Not me. But it's not how hard that you can hit. It's how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward.

Z

I can't be sure if a person's destiny is like a cloud. Floating on a fixed current that it can't escape, or if people are able to ride on whatever breeze they choose. I don't know. I don't completely understand it yet. And maybe the destination is the same, no matter what you choose. Just when you choose one course, along comes someone who's picked a different path

Z

You can't help who you love, and the only person you have to be honest with is yourself. If they were really your friends , they would understand that.

Z

it's not about what you do it's about what you say.
you don't like the person you've become?
then do something about it.
cause no ones gonna do it for you.

Z

You can't design your life like a building.it doesn't work that way.you just have to live it and let it design itself.

Z

you know, sometimes people play hard-to-get because they need to know the other person's feelings are real.

Z

"Maybe I'd get my morals back. Sometimes I thought I'd only misplaced them. Set them on top of the fridge, or some other spot I never thought to look."

Z

I don't know how to put these feelings into words, to sum it up I want to be what you deserve. Are you jaded? You're appreciated. I can't relate, it's a new sensation from my heart to yours. I've never sang like this before. Cupid found his mark, shot his arrow through our hearts, said he planned it from the start, my Valentine. I'll kiss every scar that's been planted on your heart and love you for who you are, my Valentine.

Z

Sometimes you just feel empty, lonely, insignificant. And it doesn't matter what you do, no it doesn't matter how many laps you run, musicals you join, classes you skip or how many pairs of shoes you buy - you still feel like crap. Sometimes I just feel like taking off, selling everything I own and running away to somewhere so distant; running away to the unknown. But if I did, I just want to know, would you take my hand and run with me?
-mypaperairoplane

Z

"It never hurts to keep looking for sunshine."
-Eeyore.

Z

Promise me you'll never leave me
Because my heart aches just to think of you not being here.
Jump_4jesus

Z

"the day will happen whether or not you get up."
-John Ciardi-

Z

mhmkay. buh bye!

sooo....i've finally gotten to the point where i was so bored i decided to update. i do like it but i just don't like to do it all the time anymore. anywho.......gah. is really my permanent feeling...always over one thing too...thats annoying...other than that im good!

Well I know there’s a reason
And I know there’s a rhyme
We were meant to be together
That’s why----
We can roll with the punches
We can stroll hand in hand
And when I say it’s forever
You understand---
"Only you can love me this way" Keith Urban

I woke up early this morning around four am
With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
but thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
"You'll think of me" Keith Urban

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition, or spirit, to save you from heartache.
-Oprah Winfrey.

I often wonder what little girls must think when they see older girls standing behind them in line?
They always seem to smile at you.
Is it because they admire you or simply out of pity because of the innocence you've lost?
Jump_4jesus

I feel adequate yet uncertain.
Strong yet utterly weak.
Connected yet so far from you.
Smitten yet frustrated.
All I know is that I'm learning about you.
Jump_4jesus

You can’t always get what you want, but if you try sometimes,
you might find, you get what you need.

you only find a few people in this world,
a few people who will tell you they love you
and actually mean it with all their heart.

whenever you feel like giving up,
think of the reasons why you held on.

from the moment i met you, ive been falling for you.

He's the kind of guy who makes fun of me,
and when I go to walk away,
he pulls me back into his arms.

You're letting her think she has a chance.
And there is nothing worse in the world than
thinking you have a chance when you really don't.

Sometimes you just need someone to
look forward to seeing you everyday

because the way we kiss is better than any drug
because when i'm with you, i believe in love.

** 

don't feel bad, it's not like i cried myself to sleep that night
of course i didn't feel abandoned and hurt
and if it seemed like my world was falling apart, it surely wasn't
because it's not like i care all that much for you anyways.

**

i'm sick, weak, and tired of always having to be the bigger, sweeter, nicer person.
And always giving you another chance.

**

remeber boy, you pinky promissed.

okay. comment if you want.

have a good summer!